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Feb. 7th, 2013 08:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sorararasI went to the psychologist yesterday. We did a roleplay thing, like I was being myself and my psy was being a girl, around my age, talking to me in the bus for the 1st time.
And wow it made me realize soooo many things about myself?
Like I fucking know why I don't have friends now. I'm just rly cold and not talkative and I basically give the impression I don't give a damn about the other person and that they're annoying me. Like when you ask someone if they like their class, they'd usually answer by "yes/no because blablabla what about you?" but my answer was more like "no" and that's it orz so yeah...
She basically told me it's normal people don't like me/talk to me and she has a point idk imagine you try to befriend someone and they're like "yes" "no" "idk" it makes you feel as if you're bothering them so you just stop and you can even dislike the person thinking "wow they're mean" "they're not nice" etc so yeah she's perfectly right :c
Idk how to change that about me though because I'm scared of relationships and yeah basically I can't rly do anything about that but well.
It really hurt when she told me that but it's also really helpful I mean you can't help someone by telling them what they want to hear, you have to tell them the truth no matter how much it hurts them, and that's exactly what I want people to do with me idk :c If people are like "no dw you're a nice person it's their fault" or w/e nothing's gonna change and I'll just keep hoping for something and suffer while the problem comes from me ;3; I get why they say that though and I appreciate the thought but yeah, it's not helping anyone, it's just keeping them from seeing the truth and it can make them feel better at first but they won't become happy that way :/
And wow it made me realize soooo many things about myself?
Like I fucking know why I don't have friends now. I'm just rly cold and not talkative and I basically give the impression I don't give a damn about the other person and that they're annoying me. Like when you ask someone if they like their class, they'd usually answer by "yes/no because blablabla what about you?" but my answer was more like "no" and that's it orz so yeah...
She basically told me it's normal people don't like me/talk to me and she has a point idk imagine you try to befriend someone and they're like "yes" "no" "idk" it makes you feel as if you're bothering them so you just stop and you can even dislike the person thinking "wow they're mean" "they're not nice" etc so yeah she's perfectly right :c
Idk how to change that about me though because I'm scared of relationships and yeah basically I can't rly do anything about that but well.
It really hurt when she told me that but it's also really helpful I mean you can't help someone by telling them what they want to hear, you have to tell them the truth no matter how much it hurts them, and that's exactly what I want people to do with me idk :c If people are like "no dw you're a nice person it's their fault" or w/e nothing's gonna change and I'll just keep hoping for something and suffer while the problem comes from me ;3; I get why they say that though and I appreciate the thought but yeah, it's not helping anyone, it's just keeping them from seeing the truth and it can make them feel better at first but they won't become happy that way :/
