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[sorararas]

I've decided though. I'm not gonna annoy anyone with this anymore. DW will be the only place I'll tell about my sufferings. I've already been hated enough and worried enough people with my shitty problems that no one really wants to hear. And I need to get stronger. So yeah, mom won't have to tell me I'm annoying anymore. Good, right? Yeah. I can cry by myself, it's not like a shoulder would make a big difference anyway. I'm already alone irl because no one understands me, or should I say no one tries. Like yeah... I'm hard to understand and I don't open up much. But at least don't say I'm thinking bad things or being inconsiderate when I don't think that way at all. Sure I'm an egoistic person but I try to do my best to be considerate and help others. I'm putting efforts into it but it still isn't enough for people. But I don't want to be a bitch either. So I have two options :
- either I keep saying what I think regardless of what they're saying behind my back (oh I know they do, cowards is a word suited for them)
- or I just shut the fuck up and don't open my mouth anymore since apparently I'm a bitch.
I might continue being myself. I can't guarantee I'll keep thinking that way once they hurt me more than they've already done. Let's see how they do it.
Well then, let's leave it at that. I'm gonna become stronger. I'm not gonna let anyone hurt my pride anymore.